Urgh

Sorry its been so long;

ive got SOO MUCH on my mind right now;
Boys; boys; twilight; Friends: the usuall.


ITS SOO CONFUSING BEING A TEENAGE GIRL!!


ok; so i like this guy; lets call him mr. A; and he is super gorgeous; ok?
and like; he knows me so its weirdish;
the problem is that he really liked these two other girls;
lets call them chick J and Chick M.
He realli realli Liked them; and got crushed by both of them.
J dumped him for her ex; (who happens to be one of my friends; and she hates me)
and M is cool but i can remeber the daii that they broke up.
I was standing with my circle of friends...(him included)
when my friends....(made up names) Jamie and James saw M coming. They were making jokes on how she was going to dump him and stuff.
Then james was like; oh no. She s not going to dump you; shes going to yell at you for something that you didnt do.
she pulled him aside, and talked to him.
When he came back; he looked upset, and we knew instantly what had happened.
the Guys were all laughing and making jokes.
" i knew it!!"
"dont worry; there are other fish in the sea"
But i knew he was hurtingg.


SO he liked me for like; two daiis.
yea...and now his point of view is that dating sucks and is for losers.
Its not even that i want to go outwith him either;
its that i want him to be happy. I hate seeing him down all the time. As much as he tries to hide it. You can see in his eyes that hes hurting bad. it makes me feel guilty and makes me feel bad, his gloom is frieghtning. I sai hi to himm on msn; and yea we talk.
but we only talk cause I start the conversation. i want to tell him that i want him to be happy;
and that i want to be there for him to talk to someone.
I dont want to make it sound like i like him though;

FUDGESICLES!!

and the worst part is that i cant tell him how i feell;
the last time i did he didnt talk to me for three daiis.
im soo confused;
just someoneplease; help me.



Deebaby;